Body Bug!

Today I received one of these babies:

Basically, it's a Body Bug. For those of you who don't watch the Biggest Loser and therefore have no idea what I'm talking about here's a little linky poo. Basically I wear it all day and night and then plug it into my computer and it tells me how many calories I burned during the day. You can also use the software to track your calories consumed and figure out if you "met your burn" or not. [More biggest loser slang. I love that show.]

I'm super excited about this because it will be a great tool for the whole making-my-ass-smaller process and also, it's just neato. I always wonder how many calories I burn during gym classes and workout dvds and heck, just walking around at work all day.

More on my new toy gadget later.

Confession:

I refuse to work out when I'm sick. Right now I have a cold and can't breath through my nose, therefore I will not go to spin class tonight or do pretty much any working out whatsoever because I'm a weeny. Instead I'm going to do a load of laundry and watch this weeks episode of the Biggest Loser [addicted to this show].

Wowza.

It's been ages since I've blogged. I don't know where to even begin. How about with my new mission statement...

I don't know if anyone reads this and I don't really care. I mostly do it for fun. And now, to help keep myself on track. I am trying to get back on the weight loss wagon and it's a rough, bumpy bitch of a ride. I figure I should start blogging about it to hold myself accountable and sort of document the whole thing. It was a brilliant idea I had in the shower yesterday, ok?

My struggle:

Let's get real here. I have gained 50lbs in the last almost 2 years now and I'm not okay with it. I could be at my goal weight but instead I'm starting over. Its incredibly frustrating and I'm having a hard time letting it go and forgiving myself for what I've done to my body. I mean, hell, I threw out all my "fat clothes" and the only thing that fits me now is pretty much my work uniform and anything elastic in my wardrobe. It's bullshit. And it has to stop.

Valentines day was no help. There's been a lot of candy shoveling going on here, folks. It ends right now.

Baby Platypus

I mean, seriously?

How cute are THEY?

Random Thought:

Pedicures. Totally worth the $20.

THIS is my life...

So far, I've got to say that 2011 has been a rough ride on all fronts. Not going into the gritty details [because it's just depressing and who needs that kind of self-pity anyways, am I right?]. So instead I will tell you a funny story.

Today I walked in the doors at work [I work in a shabby old grocery store as a department head] and immediately see the vultures circling. So to speak. There were a few guys with blueprints [remodel starts in 2 weeks] and the VP of our company. [Now, a word about the VP. He has a reputation. The kind that makes you tread lightly around him and hope to God you aren't on his shit list.]  Anyhoo, I did a mental break down of my department at lightning speed, trying to remember if I left my department in good shape or not. It was. So then, silly me, I thought there was nothing to worry about.

Except that I got called to check (cashier) and, who do you think came through my line? That's right! The VP. The Vice President of the company. The man who I've heard scary stories about marching in and demanding peoples jobs in a very unsavory manner. I smiled and to my delight he teased me about my department and there was cheerful banter...until I screwed up his order.  He handed me cash, a $20, for about a $4 purchase. I--because God forbid I miss a chance to embarrass myself--hit the wrong button and had to call the store manager to come save me because I made a boo-boo that I didn't know how to fix. Mortifying.

Thankfully the VP was good humored about the whole thing [I was totally freaking out on the inside]. I half expected them to make me a bagger again.

This is all in true Amanda style. I'm not suave. I'm not cool and collected. Obviously. AND I babble when I'm nervous. God knows what I said to the man.

Oh well, can't undo it so might as well get over it. Tomorrow's another day.

Wowza.

I haven't blogged in ages. So here's what's new:

• I have moved in with the boyfriend. 
• We have adopted a cute [if not quirky] red heeler named Sammy
• I have been promoted on the work front. I now run my own department and stress way more about not being a super hero. 
• I have gained back EVERY. LAST. POUND. That I lost. 
• I am trying to get back on the Weight Loss Wagon because, well, I'm feeling a bit like a fat cow ;)

Cheers.